Help! The world is against us!

 Song ideas Song idea: Get stoned and go to the mall

 Hommie (Gary Hommelhoff) by Brendan Hoffmann 11/7/2023   I just thought I’d share my story with Gary. I first met Gary in year 7 when I first felt the need to learn music. I’d been a pretty studious recorder and choir student in primary school. Little did I know just how important this interest would be later in life. I picked clarinet after an over abundance of students picked flute. I thought the clarinet was close enough to recorder. Gary was a passionate band master. He really helped us to see the music in emotional terms which has always been the greatest lesson I could learn in music. My young life was a difficult one with domestic abuse at home and eventually a divorce and breakdown of the family unit. I was so screwed up but when I played music I felt free. I felt like I was working stuff out and chipping away at that vast emptiness I felt inside. It was touch and go for a while with the band, I quit a number of times but when I started to feel better re-joined. I reme

(The second coming of Jesus as a construct of our collective consciousness)  Prologue for a new book I'm writing this is supposed to be written in the first person whereas the rest of the book will be a 3rd person perspective using a fictional universe. By Brendan Hoffmann 30/6/2023 Prologue   The second coming of Jesus as a construct of our collective consciousness By Brendan Hoffmann 30/6/2023 Christians often say Jesus will be coming back but if Jesus represents the best in us then he sure isn’t coming back as a Christian. Secular values, like the ability to sense innately our moral character through honest discourse with our own souls, (mind and body combined). Christians are so wound up in lies that they think it’s the status quo to lie, because really the minds they construct for themselves are ill-equipped to deal with the world compared to a mind that has created itself to be honest with itself. The fact that people believe irrational things is no big deal, we all do it.

Hiding behind my charm (Masking) music and exposure therapy by Brendan Hoffmann I think to make up for my inadequacies (mental health) I began life very much hiding behind my charm. The same way my Dad dealt with his problems (similar problems). I think it was a long but fulfilling road to find a closer version of my genuine self and values and drop that mask for a more authentic representation of myself. This masking still occurs now, what better way to seem like everything is going well than to use your charm to entertain people while you scramble your faculties to find something genuine to talk about. I think we all do it, there’s just some people who have more to make up for. There’s nothing wrong with it and it gives me time to think of something about my life that I can genuinely talk about. I struggle with this game of conversation sometimes. The biggest thing I face now is when someone is anxious for whatever reason and I need to contain my own anxiety which rises in

My musical destiny by Brendan Hoffmann 7/6/2023 I was thinking about if my music will ever get popular. I think it would require a very tolerant and kind listener who likes progressive and obscure music across a wide range of genres. When I started making music I wanted to do to the music industry what Kurt Cobain had done with Nirvana in sending a total shift to everything in popular music. My music is naive but not without its wisdom and innovation, if you are tolerant enough to sit through more than one album. My music has been an incredible tool for overcoming some of life’s most harrowing experiences. Childhood abuse, drug and alcohol addiction and mental illness. Across my ten or more albums I released so much energy towards healing and I honestly don’t think I would have made it without my music to help. My music is at its essence very obscure progressive music, I like music that takes a long time to become inured to and that may not be enjoyable even for the first few l

Controlled insanity… the early stages of sobriety (3 months) by Brendan Hoffmann 12/5/2023 I’ve overcome a lot to get to where I am now, approx. 3 months sober from alcohol with one or two slip ups about a month apart at the one and two month marks. I’m glad to be sober and am starting to realise that there is a lot of work to be done on my psyche. I have been somewhat emotionally raw since I got sober because I have realized that I am still angry at the world. I have daily struggles of feelings of hopelessness and anger when I scroll through twitter and get my news of the world. I love twitter, in that I can comment and promote things that are important to my values. So I feel like I’m achieving something. Not to say these feelings aren’t absolutely healthy. The fact that I’m having them is testament to my recovery and my awakening from a slumber of chemical ignorance. I have been listening to a lot of music, I bought a cheap (yet amazing) stereo amp for playing music through an